You are enough

If you have ever wondered if you have a voice, if you serve a purpose, if you are enough, this post is for you.

You have a voice. You serve a purpose. You are enough.

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Sometimes loosing yourself is finding yourself

 

Sometimes it takes being left seemingly with nothing to realise that you already are everything. To see that you held the key to your own self-worth, healing, wholeness, and belonging all along.

For several years of harming myself, pleasing everyone than myself. Hiding, fitting, trying to belong, I was running for something, someone who would finally make me stop. To tell me the words I was hoping to hear. To make me feel sufficient, acceptable, complete, not lacking, enough. But no one came to rescue me. No one was able to rip the pain from my heart and release the burden from my shoulders. I wasn’t enough.

What a lie.

A decade later, while still finding myself on a journey to wholeness, I’m finally learning to accept myself as I am, like myself as I am. Learning to stop begging people to want me or love me or make me feel like I’m ENOUGH. And learning that it’s okay to stand up and say: I’ve had ENOUGH.

 

 

The biggest lie of modern culture

 

What they tell you is to go out there and find your “happy ever-after”, go out to write your “happy ending”. To “focus on the positive” and “show up” to earn our enoughness. What a lie.

After years of “showing up” when all my soul was aching for was SLOW DOWN, I have enough of hustling for my worth. I have enough of keeping people in my life who diminish me. And I have enough of trying to be anything other than me… because I, in all my imperfect, messy glory, am perfectly ENOUGH.

I know that culturally there is a tendency to want to move on and move forward instead of being right here. So I make space. I am taking care of these really tender parts of me. Letting them be seen and heard. Not shying away from them or trying to to move forward from them. This is how we heal. By letting the broken parts take their time in mending.

What if instead of looking for that “happy ending”, “happy something”, “happy everything”, we start looking for the HAPPY RIGHT NOW? The piece, beauty and silence in the mundane. The simple joy of just being.

And knowing that this is enough. That WE ARE ENOUGH.

 

 

No matter what

 

No matter how often you failed

No mater how many tears you have lost.

No matter how often you were close to giving up.

No matter who, what, where, when, how, or why.

You are here. Now. And you are enough.

You always were. You will always be. Enough. Whole. Complete.

You are not what happened to you. You are who you choose to be in this very moment.

(Do me the favour and read that paragraph again. And again. And again.)

 

 

Your worth is your birthright

 

If you still feel like someone took away your self-worth when they hurt you, when they left you, when they crossed a personal boundary, they didn’t. They couldn’t. They can’t.

It might hurt a lot right now, but trust me this too shall pass. It might feel unbearable right now, but trust me this too shall pass.

This is not the end. It is your beginning.

 

 

You are enough

 

You always were. You will always be. Enough. Whole. Complete.

Tears flood my eyes as I sit on my yoga mat in my tiny apartment here in Germany. I can hear a loud voice in my head screaming: “Nila, stop crying! It’s enough.” Yet, there is another voice. A subtle, shallow whisper when I return to silence: “My dear Nila, you are enough. You always have been. It may have taken you awhile to see that and to finally reach this place, but you have always been enough. You have nothing to prove to anybody. You don’t need to wait for some grand external validation of your worth before you offer your kindest heart to yourself. You deserve to be the protagonist of your own messy, wonderful, bizarre, terrifying, beautiful life.

Here is your permission to stop chasing external validation and turn within. Here is your permission to just BE, in this very moment, with all your imperfections. Whatever you did today is enough. Whatever you felt today is valid. Whatever you thought today isn’t to be judged. Repeat the above each day.

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(you just read a snippet of my morning pages. To whoever needed to hear these words today. Make it a daily reminder.)

I hope my work (on Instagram and this website) can be a sanctuary in the storm, a resource for you as you heal and carry on, and make something new out of this life.

You’ve got this

Nila

 

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Ps: If you are looking for a simple, yet effective, tool to cultivate a more nourishing and loving relationship with yourself, feel free to have a look at the GOOD LIFE Journal that I created for people like me and you 🕊